i had a dream last night

i had a dream last night, just like many other nights.

the experience is so vivid and all. it's amazing how the mind can fool you into thinking that sometimes dreams are the reality. i guess most of us would be happy to believe that the dream is real especially when it's so gratifying and something which fulfills our desires.

the sucky part is realising that all that is beautiful is all a hoax.

i dreamt that i was at school, part of some tv crew doing some filming. we did some editing. the beginning shot was some scenes of the runway fashion show, where the models would strut their stuff and the camera crew would simply shoot shoot shoot.

then i woke up.

i guess perhaps this dream shows that despite being in school, being a teacher, i feel stifled in some ways.

i used to be from a faculty culture where anything goes.

creativity is the key and so is tolerance and acceptance of people's radical ideas.

perhaps this dream shows how much i yearn for the past, and yet this past is depicted as some video clip i had editted in the dream.

guess it shows something right? that everything that exists in the google box never makes any sense.

yes i'm edgy. but i guess that side of me will reside quietly for a while in a deep dark corner.

no, i'm not insinuating that teachers are uncreative. perhaps it's the environment and expectations that starve people of creativity.

then again.... the most radical and earth-shaking creative moments were borne out of oppressive times.

ha, guess this sort of thing doesn't happen to the little red dot.