cross

ya i think i'm falling sick. caught the flu virus, making its round the office.

sigh.

went to church yesterday for the regular charismatic service.

i felt absolutely tired and sick and dreary.

but singing those praise songs and listening to the guest speaker commenting on the trials that people face made me feel so much better.

heh.

probably god's tired of hearing me grumble about the lot i have in life.

grumbling about how unfair the world is.

how terrible things can be.

how difficult and heart-wrenching life can be sometimes.

there was a part where he said that "the crosses (trial) in your life are there for a reason and that is to remind you that you need god. without these sufferings, we don't need god at all."

yes this may make god sound like some form of opium, like what some famous philosopher, who was also an overachiever, said.


But i suppose that could be right.

it was only during those times when i felt troubled and down, disappointed and stretched, depths of heartache that i could understand and emphathise other pple's problems better.

i guess life is afterall a journey.

people are never happy with it.

when it's too smooth, people can get too complacent and may complaint that it's too boring.

when it's too rough, people complain that life is unfair.

perhaps the only fair thing in this world is its unfairness, as i told my kids today, when they grumble to me that LIFE IS UNFAIR.

i don't know.

all i told them is.......... the only thing you can change is your mindset.

if you tell yourself something ten times a day......you'll grow to believe it.