zouk, mad thursday dash and the movie

wednesday night was quite fun. i felt restless and sian.

i felt overworked and underplayed (if there's ever such a word.)

yeah i'm becoming the dull girl.

with dull aspirations.

thank god my friend b asked me out for a mambo night. at first i didn't really wanna go because i don't know any of his friends, but i'm glad i did go.

it's been quite a long time since i went back to the good ol' zouk.

it's as if i'm stuck in a time warp.

walking down the pavement along kim seng road.

somehow the people there are ageless.

they look the same after all these years - stand in crowd posing in their clubbing gear, look young and ever ready for a mambo groove.

on my way to meet my friend, i saw a bunch of familiar faces.

one of them saw me and stared at me for a while as if he also found me familiar.

i didn't know them, and vice versa but we were from the same jc. yeah. they were "HIS" good friends.

then as i went through my friendster.... he has just posted a happy family picture of him, his wife and his daughter.

somehow, jealousy struck in. not because i was jealous he married another girl. but more so because he found his happiness, while i'm still stuck in lala land of self discovery.

and like i told my friend b later in the morning - the guy i liked don't exist anymore. he's no longer that person.

the biggest joke one can ever have is to meet the guy of your dreams and then he change.

yeah i guess destiny has a way of fooling around with me.

i fall for a guy. the guy and i somehow like each other. we either don't end up together or we will just break up. simply because. he has changed. or i have changed.

change is a dirty word.

for once, i want some things to remain unchanged. to remain relevant.

yeah. silly whimsical thoughts do float by when one is drowned in the sea of alcohol and retro music.

then earlier today i had to rush to work to do some stuff....

following which, friend A asked me out for a movie - she's the man.




fab fab fab movie. it's been a long time since i watched a romantic comedy which made me smile. in a sick way, i felt that i could relate with the lead charater viola played really well by amanda bynes

the tomboyish girl who is always seen as one of the boys..... decides to pretend to be her brother in order to get into a boy's soccer team to prove her ex-bf wrong.

and yet in the end she managed to snag the hunk of the movie.

movies are forever fairy tales.

it happened to me once. but i was left with nothing but a broken dream.

sometimes i wish that i never cared so much about the bad l word. perhaps i will not be stuck with so much emotional baggage.

if not such emotional baggage was for sale.

after the movie........ friend a and i took the bus back home.

at the silence of the night......somehow i felt very lonely. and yet i knew that i can only rely on myself to go through this.......... somehow.........someday.