fantasy versus reality

when one is caught in fantasy world of love, fame, money, career, etc, one tends to overestimate one's true ability to hang loose, to achieve the things one wants.

i tend to be caught in that fantasy world for quite a while. i dunnoe. dreaming seems to be an outlet for me.

whatever i hope or wish, appears just the way i want it in my dreams.

of course, i know it's silly.

there's a time to dream, and a time to wake up from your dreams to realise that things are never meant to be.

disappointments, failings and quarrels can just gnaw one's spirit of loving others.

sigh.

guess the only thing i can do is to trust god to pull me through this difficult period.