RETROSPECTIVE

occasionally, we'll come to the point where we have to make a tough decision.

a decision that you wish you don't have to take because of the heartache involved. but now being older and wiser...i knew i had to do it once again.

i have to cut off links with parts of my life which are not fruitful and would only cause pain and emotional yearning.

in a way, i feel relieved that i did so.............and yet part of me feels empty once again.

it's like you've been thirsty for many months..and then you thought you've reached the oasis in the desert........yet it's only an illusion.

an illusion of what you think is to be.

perhaps, lost souls tend to love the comfort zone of illusion.

afterall, it fulfills all of your desires.

but then again...such so-called fulfilment is often made up of emptiness.

pensive stuff.

but one thing i'm grateful for is.............i'm found an anchor to help me remain sane in this stressful.......meaningless......world.

and i'm grateful for that.