LETTING GO

today as i was clearing my stuff, came across stuff from the year 1999 to 2006......letters from old friends, current friends, friends whom i was close to at one point or another....or yearbooks of yesteryears at university, jc.

then came across photos of former good friends, current good friends...what i was like and how i developed over the years.

ups and downs. happiness and tears...all smeared across those diaries of mine.

yeah suddenly i'm feeling so introspective about things.

and a sudden inner peace finally.....where i can finally clear the debris of my life and move on with a clearer vision and a fresh start.

and somehow, unlike the past where i grew ashamed of my imperfection and insecurities.....now i just feel as if i can spread my wings and fly.


sure..i might have many chips on my shoulders and emotional scars all over the place and maybe a jaded eye sight...but something within me glows. :) [yes i know i sound cheesy haha..]

and yes...i'll continue with this life journey with a greater fight.... a fight to be happy and loved. and to love of course.

muacks

plus and minus

PLUS OF 2007
1) got closer to deserving friends
2) grew closer with family
3) recognition at work
4) learning to control my emotions and responsibilities better
5) finding myself again

MINUS OF 2007
1) too many forgettable moments
2) quarrels
3) almost hit rock bottom
4) fatigue
5) overworked


so what does 2008 bring?

I hope
1) more love from within and out.
2) more patience and less self indulgence
3) more devotion and kindness
4) less fatigue and more balance

hello hello

yeah it's tt time of the year when we contemplate, reflect and wonder what have we done with our lives....

now i'm feeling really sick after the kl trip. heh

really had a good time with three of my best pals around, E,G and D.

we drove all the way (actually it was mostly poor D and partly E) to kl, conquered the horrible wait at the tuas checkpoint, then sped our way to kl.

heh the pub/clubbing scene is definitely more happening....then again G's m'sian friend prefers to club in singapore, so i suppose the grass is always greener on the other side. we did a bit of shopping and then went to this indoor roller coaster ride and other rides which were quite amusing heh.

then of course.......goto say goodbye.

haha next stop would be phuket or bali :) can't wait already.

but really la........realised life is quite unpredictable, whoever knew that i met my current fab friends through quite coincidental means........love them la...
coz they forgive me for the times when i'm grouchy and mean. muacks/

in the meantime i goto nurse this silly sorethroat i got from kl.

no thanks to some drinking and bad air la. heh

somemore crap

Your Style is Sassy

Your date outfits are flirty and fun - and make guys smile Occasionally you'll take a fashion risk, and it will pay off You're up for flashing an inch or two of skin But your general rule is to leave most of your bod to the imagination

Is Your Date Fashion Style Classy, Sassy, or Trashy?

Your Expression Number is 8

Driven and ambitious, you have the potential to reach great things. You're both good with money and good at getting things done quickly. You are an excellent leader and a great judge of character. Full of energy and confidence, you undertake projects that seem impossible. Dependable and determined, you are able to understand the bigger picture. Even if you are not in a position of power right now, it will fall to you. At times, you can be very materialistic - and obsessed with status and power. While this isn't always a bad thing, you sometimes take it to the extreme. In order to be truly happy, you must balance the material and spiritual in your life.

What's Your Expression Number?

Never Date a Scorpio

Jealous, paranoid, and possessive - deep down, your Scorpio will never trust you. And even if you are very trust worthy person, Scorpio's paranoia may drive you to act out. Instead try dating: Aries, Gemini, Libra, or Sagittarius

What Sign Shouldn't You Date?

You Are a Strawberry Daiquiri

You're a fun, playful drinker who loves to party. You may get totally wasted, but you're always a happy drunk!

What Mixed Drink Are You?

You Are a Total Tease

You're all about flirting and fun, but you often give guys the wrong idea Most men think they have a chance with you... but come on! You've got high standards, and most men you flirt with aren't going to make the grade And while your tease act will work for a while, every guy you know will eventually be the wiser

Do Men Think You're You A Tease?

holiday tunes

Your Makeup Look Is

Dramatic Eyes with Naked Lips You rock an edgy, modern look with feminine grace

What's Your Signature Makeup Look?

Your Makeup Look Is

Dramatic Eyes with Naked Lips You rock an edgy, modern look with feminine grace

What's Your Signature Makeup Look?

Your Fashion Style is Trendy

You love fashion and live to shop And keeping up with the latest trends is what you love best You know what's in, out, about to be in, and about to be out You love to dress your friends and would make a killer celebrity stylist

What Kind of Fashionable Woman Are You?

quizzies

Your Lucky Underwear is Blue

You are caring and extroverted. You've made relationships your number one focus, and your lucky blue underwear can bring some balance to them. You thrive in one-on-one situations. You are a good listener and a natural born therapist. Sometimes you let the concerns of others become too important in your life, leading to stress and worry. If you want more balance, put on your blue underpants. They'll help you take care of yourself first.

What Color Is Your Lucky Underwear?

What The Holidays Mean to You

For you, the holidays are about emotional connections and bonds. You are happiest being around those you love. You celebrate the holidays in a minimalist style. You are likely to only give one great present and decorate your house with a few special items. During the holidays, you feel magical. You love all of the decorations and how happy people are. You like to sit back and take it all in. You think the holidays should be nostalgic and sweet. The holidays bring out your inner child. Your best holiday memories are of childhood foods and traditions. You secretly still wish you believed in Santa Claus.

What Do the Holidays Mean to You?

Your Love Type: ENFP

The Inspirer In love, you are passionate and eager to develop a strong bond. For you, sex should be playful, creative, and affectionate. Overall, you are perceptive and bring out the best in your partner. However, you tend to hold on to bad relationships after they've turned bad. Best matches: INTJ and INFJ

What's Your Love Type?

You are Dark Chocolate

You live your life with intensity, always going full force. You push yourself (and others) to the limit... you want more than you can handle. An extreme person, you challenge and inspire the world!

What Kind of Chocolate Are You?

You Are Lemon Meringue Pie

You're the perfect combo of sassy and sweet. You always know how to brighten someone's mood, but you're not overly sappy. In fact, you can be a bit too honest at times. And most people find that refreshing. While you're always true to yourself, you keep things light. That's how people are able to stomach your slightly bitter outlook. Those who like you have well refined tastes. You're complicated - and let's face it - a true enigma. You enjoy defying expectations, and there are many layers to your personality. There's not one easy way to define you.

What Kind of Pie Are You?

Your Vibe is Super Sexy

You feel 100% sexy at almost any moment And this inner sexiness really does boost your appeal You're confident, playful, and outgoing You know what you have to offer - and you're proud of it!

What Kind of Sexy Girl Vibe Do You Have?

Your Lucky Love Color is Purple

When someone gets to know you, the first thing they notice is how romantic you are. The most romantic of all the colors, in fact. You are a big flirt and a total tease. Your antics get you in trouble, but they also get you what you want. And unlike what your color might suggest, you are not a princess of any sort. If anything, you make your man feel like a prince. Your heart is dreamy and open. You don't put restrictions on love - because you never know what can happen.

What Does Your Lucky Love Color Tell Men?

Your True Sign Is Sagittarius

Funny Confident Easily Bored Philosophical World Traveler Spontaneous and Wild Carefree and Irresponsible Blunt to the Point of Tactless

What Sign Woman Are You, Really?

Your Beauty Element is Fire

Wild and sexy, you keep your beauty style smokin' hot. You're not afraid of glamour or showing off your assets!

What's Your Beauty Element?

You Are An Invisible Ex

You're so over your ex, you hardly even remember you have an ex You prefer leave all of the baggage behind you - far, far behind As they say, indifference is the opposite of love!

What Type of Ex Are You?

starting anew

perhaps it's that time of the year when everything that has happened in the past starts to pour in front of you...and you start to reflect on what was, what's now and what's going to be.

But somehow..it felt as if i was ready to put everything behind me in the past. the bad things that happened.

like

my bad experience with debts
my bad experience with ex-bfs
my bad experience with some people
my bad experience at work

in a way, i feel relieved and released from all the pessimism.

and now i'm ready to soar like an eagle to find my true calling.

so... experimentation takes place now.

song stuck in my hear

heh yeah the original :p

Good ol' SBC shows :)

yeah it's 25 years of mediacorp shows...and my dad is invited to star awards coz he was part of the supervising production team during those years of production. ya...he has sort of retired for more than 10 years...heh



hahaha the scandalous show...which was shown when i was primary 3 or 4...and everyone in my class would gossip about how the character bobo was scandalous in sleeping around...and how she got raped and all...not exactly good tv for children heh.



another gem from the 80's hahaha. :p cheesy but quite endearing.



the fab volleyball show that made everyone go crazy :p


the scary show...that always send shudders.... don't know why :p


more classics hahahaha. no wonder i had such imagination back then.





another childhood memory :)


the cheesy music hahahaha purple killer :p and zoe tay in her awful haircut.




god this is the show i stayed up to watch secretly when i was in primary 2. :p



another scary mystery version with a nice song. :)



immortal love :)




qin xin huan wo xin... the show tt made my whole family cry buckets.




the show where chen xiuhuan acted as an alien Feiyue Yinhe

drama mama

it has been a dramatic year of events.

in short, evy and i summed it up as...

1) a series of forgettable events ....so forgettable that we can no longer remember people's names or sequence of events....is it a sign of old age or simply a sense of bochupness after some fabulous encounters last year?

2) who's in, who's out...yet in again...we never know.

3) it's been a piggy, fatty, busy, frustrating year where we quarrelled so much, patched back and then got too busy to catch up. so...ratty year...we should be thinner, meaner and happier :)