planners and spontaneity

are you one who plan your events/activities on a daily basis, or simply just go with the wind goes?

are you the type who already drawn up the plan for the major events of your life, or the type who see what the trend is at the moment.

i don't know.

i used to be a planner until i realised that plans don't necessarily go as erm planned?

or worse still....when you realised your plans or what you had in mind......goes into smoke when your priorities change.

what to do. my mantra has been changed to.... just see what the moment offers and go with the flow.

yeah. it's a tiring 25 years trying to map out your life...strategise long term goals and objectives blahblah... how to get into A before going to B...............

in an essence..just tired lah.

enuff with planning.

the planner has thrown in the towel. (for now).

tests

Your Love Element Is Fire

In love, you are a true listener and totally present. For you, love is all about feeling more alive than you've ever felt. You attract others with your joy and passion. Your flirting style is defined by your strong ability to communicate. Fun and play are the cornerstones of your love life. And while your flame may burn too brightly, it's part of your appeal. You connect best with: Wood Avoid: Water You and another Fire element: will likely burn out quickly

What Element Is Your Love?

You Should Be A Libra

What's good about you: A total charmer, you easily find friends and allies What's bad about you: You have a secret side that's easily confused and depressed In love: you enjoy flirting, dating, and the whole process of falling for someone In friendship, you're: very social ... you rather be with your friends than be alone Your ideal job: fashion designer, makeup artist, or song writer Your sense of fashion: very feminine / masculine (depending on your gender) You like to pig out on: sweet stuff like ice cream and french toast

What Sign Should You Be?

You Are a Newborn Soul

You are tolerant, accepting, and willing to give anyone a chance. On the flip side, you're easy to read and easily influenced by others. You have a fresh perspective on life, and you can be very creative. Noconformist and nontraditional, you've never met anyone who's like you. Inventive and artistic, you like to be a trendsetter. You have an upbeat spirit and you like almost everything. You make friends easily and often have long standing friendships. Implusive and trusting, you fall in love a little too easily. Souls you are most compatible with: Bright Star Soul and Dreaming Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

fatigue

ever felt so tired that you do not wish to get out of bed?

well that's what i've been feeling lately.

i feel rather empty.

without a purpose

i don't feel like doing anything.

no work. no play. no nothing.

sigh.

i hope i will snap out of this soon...as work is coming in.

some after the dark thoughts

no. nothing naughty. just mere rambling thoughts which just flow without any coherent reason.

1) it's amazing how you can have connection with a stranger in just a few minutes........than with people you mingle with every day.

2) desinty is weird. fate is fickle.

3) we only know what is important when we do not possess it........but when we possess what used to be important to us, we do not know it anymore.

4) happiness may not happen in pairs.........happiness can be a singular term.

OLD SONGS FOUND

I was looking through old cds, those silly compilations which the silly youthful me once bought in order to listen to just one or two songs.

surprisingly...some of the not-so-known tunes turned out to be gems.

yeah sorry. i'm still stuck in the 1990s when it comes to ballads.

here's a gem. :)

Will You Wait For Me Lyrics
Artist: Kavana
Album: Instinct

I need to talk with you again
Why did you go away?
All our time together still feels like yesterday...

I never thought I'd see
A single day without you
The things we take for granted
We can sometimes lose...

And if I promise not to feel this pain
Will I see you again? Will I see you again?

CHORUS :
Coz time will pass me by
Maybe I'll never learn to smile
But I know I'll make it through,
If you wait for me...

And all the tears I cry,
No matter how I try,
They'll never bring you home to me
Won't you wait for me in heaven?

Do you remember how it was?
When we never seemed to care,
The days went by so quickly,
Coz I thought you'd always be there...

And it's hard to let you go,
Though I know that I must try,
I feel like I've been cheated,
Coz we never said goodbye...

And if I promise not to feel this pain,
Will I see you again? Will I see you again?

(repeat chorus)

Coz I miss you so, and I need to know...
Will you wait for me?

(repeat chorus)

And time will pass me by,
Maybe I'll never learn to smile,
But I know I'll make it through
if you wait for me... And all the tears I cry,
No matter how I try,
They'll never bring you home to me
Won't you wait for me in heaven?

Do you remember how it was?
When we never seemed to care,
The days went by so quickly,
Coz I thought you'd always be there...

And it's hard to let you go,
Though I know that I must try,
I feel like I've been cheated,
Coz we never said goodbye...

And if I promise not to feel this pain,
Will I see you again? Will I see you again?

(repeat chorus)

Coz I miss you so, and I need to know...
Will you wait for me?

(repeat chorus)

sick and tired

sigh just as work has began, i've fallen victim to the flu bug.

need to recover man.

to do work

to play

and erm to finish my work.

fantasy versus reality

when one is caught in fantasy world of love, fame, money, career, etc, one tends to overestimate one's true ability to hang loose, to achieve the things one wants.

i tend to be caught in that fantasy world for quite a while. i dunnoe. dreaming seems to be an outlet for me.

whatever i hope or wish, appears just the way i want it in my dreams.

of course, i know it's silly.

there's a time to dream, and a time to wake up from your dreams to realise that things are never meant to be.

disappointments, failings and quarrels can just gnaw one's spirit of loving others.

sigh.

guess the only thing i can do is to trust god to pull me through this difficult period.

BACK AND THEN

heh yeah i've disappeared for days. basically the past few days have been centered largely on me and myself and i.

which simply means, i've decided to do things which make ME happy for once :)

just thank god though. although i feared that i'll be lonely and depressed, he sends angels from heaven to the rescue.

meaning to say that i'm amazed that my social life hasn't seen a drought despite being so busy at work, and unable to meet new people.

somehow, gal pals seem to be the main anthem in june.

just chilling out with the girls.

something which i haven't done in a the longest time.

and none of those bitchy/slutty/irritating/shallow type of girls.

girls who are sweet, kind and just simply a joy to hang out with.

yeah so do go out there and collect gal pals. :)

yeah sure...guys are nice to hang out with too. but the things you do with them are limited and erm can send the wrong signals to the wrong crowd haha.

like one of my male friends sulked in a mock fashion online (ok la using one of those emoticons) saying that his friends think he and i are compatible.

it's quite laughable given that i just treat him like a little brother/sister, and he treats me like erm a friend? a bitch mate? someone whom he can irritate? heh.

yeah thank god for the past few days.

i seriously needed the break :)

MEDJUGORJE

just the night where the church auntie gave me a lift......some of the other church aunties came along too as it was on their way as well.

one of them gleefully passed me a book on the medjugorje experience.

it's just a simple book. and to tell you frankly... i've always viewed medjugorje as a myth, a legend, a hunt for the holy grail, basically something made up for those who thirst for faith.

it all started when i was a little girl. my late mum will always want to go there, even when she was mentally ill.

later, our parish priest convinced her that it doesn't matter where you pray, god IS everywhere afterall.

i suppose perhaps god seems to be easily found in some places more so than others because our human hearts do not let him in on certain occasions.

perhaps what my mother wanted to seek is true healing (since she was quite sick at that point both in spirit and in flesh).

then again, i truly wonder if true sickness dwells in those of us who simply live life as it is. without questioning. without evaluating. without asking.

asking what is the truth.

what is god.

who is god.

is there a god.

so what if there's a god.

even though the RC church doesn't acknowledge the so-called miracles which happened in that little small village stuck in a war torn zone........

many still persevere to go there.

http://www.medjugorje.org/

sometimes i do wonder if faith is really such an easy journey.

or do we just need to search within ourselves..... truthfully.......whether we do believe in god. and trust him to do the right thing for us.

in his time.

THE AUNTIE, BLUE INK AND MORE

yes the auntie in me has resurfaced. (auntie as in housewife or homemaker).

yeah the holidays have an effect on me. i stay at home longer than i should.

and when that happens, i get more disgusted with the sloppy state of my room especially.

so it's time to get organised.

out with the nonsense, rubbish and useless stuff.......

and erm in with neatness, organisation and cleaner room.

it sure was a good workout. i spent about four hours cleaning up my room. sigh~

after that, i took out the stamp kit which i've bought earlier in the day so that it'll make my work easier.

i felt damn "auntie" doing so. making sure everything's pretty and clean and neat.

actually it's quite addictive. i was even thinking of how to buy shelves to neaten the living room. or even buy some cleaning agents with my sister...so tat we can give the kitchen a nice big scrub.

yeeks.

does it spell something beneath the surface?

that i actually am trying to settle my life?

yeah perhaps. and in the midst of putting the words that i wanted in the stamp, which comes with some ink, little rubbery alphabet letters that you can rearrange on the plate.... i got smudged with the inky blue ink.

hell.. i was even thinking of getting the date stamp. and even heading down to ikea to see how i can beautify my home. hahaha

oh no. this is bad.

as much as this makes me sound like a desperate housewife (without the kinky factor), i just love cleaning up my room.

it makes me feel so refreshed...and psychologically my mind feels renewed by the new ambience (yah i have a habit of rearranging the furniture such as my study desk once in a while.)

hmmm what's next?

curtains?

SURPRISE OF THE CENTURY

nay no big surprise here.

but i had a nice time on sunday despite the drizzles and slightly odd weather.

met up with a friend and chilled out with her at serangoon gardens for gelato and more food. :)

nothing beats having a nice company to chat with. yeah nothing beats female bonding.

none of the "i think he likes me or i like him" shit. heh

just simple friendship.

yeah, i've been making more gal pals lately than guy pals. which is a good change. not to say that guy pals are not fun to be with. but sometimes i guess female friends are really a joy to be with too.

just today i received a message from an unexpected old friend.

we've lost contact for years due to our busy schedules and different routes in life.
she has registered her marriage with some nice guy, and now finally working.

whereas i've worked for two years....swinging single.

yeah i miss the days when she and i would just study at kfc, walk around jurong point and talk about silly stuff. guys. love. studies. our goal in life. blahblah. god even.

indeed...friends are harder to find with an older spirit and an even more cynical heart.

conversation with the higher being

late last night i couldn't sleep due to the excitement caused by the latte i took earlier last night for dinner.

thoughts which don't make sense just kept running through my head.

one of the thoughts was ....going back to church to speak to god.

yeah it's been quite a while since i went back to church. i was so tired during work that i've neglected the spiritual part of my life.

and my soul is yearning for that peace and comfort.

so i headed to another nearby church for mass.

and something which the priest said struck me.

he was lamenting about how the youths didn't attend the daily mass even though it's the june holidays...unlike the other church just nearby.

i suppose i felt sad for the priest. he has an uphill task, despite having beautiful parish...

whereas the parish which is set up on a hill.........ironically the task for those parish priests aren't as uphill.

i guess like i told my younger sister earlier that sometimes when churches get too established, people take things for granted (myself included of course.)

they take their faith for granted.
they take their knowledge of god for granted.
they take the power of the holy spirit for granted.

in a strange way..........right after mass. all i heard was people rushing off......as though they had already fulfilled their quota for the day. or for the week.

in a way, i feel sad for my church because there's a lack of zest that is present in the new age churches.

then again, i also know that i have to trust god to intervene at his own time.

deep in my heart, i knew he would make a way.

but this also made me reflect about my life.

am i a sunday catholic? or simply practise what is convenient.

and in some sheepish guilt...i do feel guilty that i'm not doing anything for the church.

it was until my church friend michelle told me that i'm serving god in my job. my everyday job.

yeah.

i guess like another church friend told me...people have gifts given by the lord to serve the community.

it so happens that mine is the gift of teaching.

yeah.

but even so...i found it a struggle to stay passionate at a work place which only believes in grades. or rather society for that matter.

i find it tough to appear optimistic for the kids when i myself am an incorrigible cynic.

and in the hustle and bustle of the line........

my value and purpose in life gets drowned in the sea of marking.

which is why i've decided to volunteer at this place to keep myself sane.

i'll keep you guys updated on the little humbling adventures i've set myself for.

true.

i may be a teacher.

but i need to be taught life's lessons first..before truly understanding it and then imparting the best values to the next generation.

anyway i am not trying to appear to be noble or perfect. because that's not what i am. but just another humble human being out there trying to make another few lives feel better.

daily dose of personality tests :)

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth. In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it. In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Slow and Steady

Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment. They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.

How Do People See You?

You Are Balanced - Realist - Empowered

You feel your life is controlled both externally and internally. You have a good sense of what you can control and what you should let go. Depending on the situation, you sometimes try to exert more control. Other times, you accept things for what they are and go with the flow. You are a realist when it comes to luck. You don't attribute everything to luck, but you do know some things are random. You don't beat yourself up when bad things happen to you... But you do your best to try to make your own luck. You have a good deal of power, but you also know the pecking order. You realize that working the system does get you further. You know who to defer to and who to control. When it comes to the game of life, you play things flawlessly.

The Three Dimension Luck and Power Test

Tommy Lee Shares Your Taste in Music

See his whole playlist here (iTunes required)

Which Musician (or Group) Shares Your Taste in Music?

How Much Do You Know About Blogging?

the daily report

today was the sunny little droplets day.

i woke up late in the morning... and then headed down to meet sue and wm for lunch at sakae sushi (yet again) and we had fondue much later.

while browsing through cds at one of the record stores at a particular shopping centre, i came across some gem-worthy albums. but finally fell in love with just one.

the goo goo dolls' latest album which is surprisingly nice and sweet.

yeah. a little drums and guitars here and there...accompanied by the sweet vocals.

less angry and yet still emotional enough for me to go nuts over.

you know the feeling la... the feeling of nua-ing...stoning...or slacking over a hot cup of coffee during a rainy day with a friend.

one of the songs which is stuck to my head is

Stay with you (Goo Goo Dolls)

Those streets turn me inside out
everything shines
but leaves me empty still
and i'll burn this lonely house down
if you run with me
if you run with me

chorus
I'll stay with you. The walls will fall before we do
take my hand now.
we'll run forever
i can feel the storm inside you
i'll stay with you
fooled by my own desires

i twist my fate
just to feel you
but you turn me toward the light
and you're the one with me
will you run with me?

Chorus

Bridge:
now come in from this storm
i taste you sweet and warm
take what you need
take what you need
from me
wake up this world
wake up tonight
and run with me
run to me now

Chorus

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yeah what i truly feel now is emptiness.
a rediscovery journey
the feeling of being stuck on a bus journey ...about to reach a destination...only to be told that i have to take a detour.

ever had the feeling that you thought you have figured things out.
figured what you really want in life
only to discover that they are merely lies weaved by yourself
because you're afraid to face the truth.
the cold harsh truth.

and when you finally acknowledge this escapist mode
you just feel like standing in the rain
and have a moment's worth of time frozen
so that you can rethink your thoughts
before you make your next move
without ever to make the wrong move again.

i don't know.

is this merely a phase?
or is it just a transition in my life?
i'm both excited and scared.

excited about change
fearful of what it may bring.

oh well...other than such thoughts...

at night...went out with friend j for kopi/ dinner/catch up and watched the first half of the world cup match of england versus paraguay.

it was b-o-r-i-n-g.

but it was nice catching up with an old friend.
yeah. the luxury of doing so only during the holidays.

more brainless quizzies

You Are 30% Evil

A bit of evil lurks in your heart, but you hide it well. In some ways, you are the most dangerous kind of evil.

How Evil Are You?

Popular Kid

In high school, everyone knew your name - even if you didn't know theirs. In fact, your still skating by on your looks and charm. Nothing wrong with that!

Who Were You In High School?

Your Birth Month is February

Peaceful and harmonious, you seek the gentle side of life. Your warmth and consideration touches many. Your soul reflects: Purity, modesty, and faithfulness Your gemstone: Amethyst Your flower: Iris Your colors: Purple, yellow, and light blue

What Does Your Birth Month Mean?

Your Emoticon is Cool

You're not feeling particularly up or down, just relaxed and calm. You're ready for whatever is going to happen next!

What Emoticon Best Represents You Right Now?

Your Scholastic Strength Is Deep Thinking

You aren't afraid to delve head first into a difficult subject, with mastery as your goal. You are talented at adapting, motivating others, managing resources, and analyzing risk. You should major in: Philosophy Music Theology Art History Foreign language

What Should You Major In?

Your Blogging Type is Unique and Avant Garde

You're a bit ... unusual. And so is your blog. You're impulsive, and you'll often post the first thing that pops in your head. Completely uncensored, you blog tends to shock... even though that's not your intent. You tend to change your blog often, experimenting with new designs and content.

What's Your Blogging Personality?

You Are Mystique

Sneaky and duplicitous, you're likely to use your powers for evil. You're eternally young looking, people don't realize how old you really are! Powers: Shapeshifting - you can impersonate other people or become a monster

Which of the X-Men Are You?

zouk, mad thursday dash and the movie

wednesday night was quite fun. i felt restless and sian.

i felt overworked and underplayed (if there's ever such a word.)

yeah i'm becoming the dull girl.

with dull aspirations.

thank god my friend b asked me out for a mambo night. at first i didn't really wanna go because i don't know any of his friends, but i'm glad i did go.

it's been quite a long time since i went back to the good ol' zouk.

it's as if i'm stuck in a time warp.

walking down the pavement along kim seng road.

somehow the people there are ageless.

they look the same after all these years - stand in crowd posing in their clubbing gear, look young and ever ready for a mambo groove.

on my way to meet my friend, i saw a bunch of familiar faces.

one of them saw me and stared at me for a while as if he also found me familiar.

i didn't know them, and vice versa but we were from the same jc. yeah. they were "HIS" good friends.

then as i went through my friendster.... he has just posted a happy family picture of him, his wife and his daughter.

somehow, jealousy struck in. not because i was jealous he married another girl. but more so because he found his happiness, while i'm still stuck in lala land of self discovery.

and like i told my friend b later in the morning - the guy i liked don't exist anymore. he's no longer that person.

the biggest joke one can ever have is to meet the guy of your dreams and then he change.

yeah i guess destiny has a way of fooling around with me.

i fall for a guy. the guy and i somehow like each other. we either don't end up together or we will just break up. simply because. he has changed. or i have changed.

change is a dirty word.

for once, i want some things to remain unchanged. to remain relevant.

yeah. silly whimsical thoughts do float by when one is drowned in the sea of alcohol and retro music.

then earlier today i had to rush to work to do some stuff....

following which, friend A asked me out for a movie - she's the man.




fab fab fab movie. it's been a long time since i watched a romantic comedy which made me smile. in a sick way, i felt that i could relate with the lead charater viola played really well by amanda bynes

the tomboyish girl who is always seen as one of the boys..... decides to pretend to be her brother in order to get into a boy's soccer team to prove her ex-bf wrong.

and yet in the end she managed to snag the hunk of the movie.

movies are forever fairy tales.

it happened to me once. but i was left with nothing but a broken dream.

sometimes i wish that i never cared so much about the bad l word. perhaps i will not be stuck with so much emotional baggage.

if not such emotional baggage was for sale.

after the movie........ friend a and i took the bus back home.

at the silence of the night......somehow i felt very lonely. and yet i knew that i can only rely on myself to go through this.......... somehow.........someday.

seduction by the sign

Your True Love Is a Sagittarius

Why you'll love a Sagittarius: Deep and philosophical, you'll love getting lost in hours of conversation with your Sag. Your Sagittarius is curious and adventurous enough to keep you interested... not an easy task! Why a Sagittarius will love you: You're passionate about a few important issues, a kind of depth that Sagittarius finds very attractive. You're outgoing, flexible, and up for almost anything. You and your Sag will have tons of adventures together.

What Sign Is Your True Love?

Got this from dear sue's blog.

heh.

i'm just amused by these personality test. you can say that i'm a personality test junkie. one who could simply try out all types of silly quizzes in the name of a self search.

yeah. i guess sometimes i tend to be too complex to the point where i don't even understand myself or my thoughts sometimes.

come to think of it, i was attracted to a few sagis.

but then again, i never end up with any of them. possibly due to my aloofness and acidic sense of humour which tends to put normal folks off.

this is not to say that i date abnormal folk :p but in general, the poor guy has to endure my rather strange brand of humour.

the irony of all is that i've started to have this strange trait which i totally detested from my first boyfriend.

he has the most repulsive sense of humour which feeds on hurting people's feelings.

i guess for me...perhaps the sarcasm has been developed over the years through these influences.

oh well. perhaps i ought to learn to keep my mouth shut, especially when it's in front of an unappreciated audience.

life is but a stage afterall.

why play it up to a bunch of ungrateful twits? heh.

oh yeah more personality quizzies

Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will have a few true loves. Although you may have been hurt before, you tend to bring very little scars into new relationships. You prefer a quirky, unique person to be your lover. You're easy going about who you're with, as long as they love you back. In fights, you are able to walk away and calm down. You are able to weather the storm. Break-ups can be painful for you, but you never show it. You hold your head high.

Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed

What Your Face Says

At first glance, people see you as warm and well-balanced. Overall, your true self is passive and thoughtful. With friends, you seem logical, detached, and a bit manipulative. In love, you seem mysterious and interesting. In stressful situations, you seem selfish and moody.

What Do People Think Of Your Face?

Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy: Your propensity for monogamy is medium. In general, you prefer to have only one love interest. But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long! There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering. Experience Level: Your experience level is high. You've loved, lost, and loved again. You have had a wide range of love experiences. And when the real thing comes along, you know it! Dominance: Your dominance is medium. You tend to be the one with more power. You aren't a total control freak in relationships.. But of course you don't mind getting you way! Cynicism: Your cynicism is low. You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance. No matter how many times you've been hurt - you're never bitter. You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate. And if you haven't found true love yet, you know you will soon. Independence: Your independence is medium. In relationships, you need both "me time" and "we time." You usually find it easy to be part of a couple. But occasionally you start to feel a little smothered.

The Five Variable Love Test

People Envy Your Confidence

You have the attitude and self esteem to take on anything. Failure is beyond not an option for you - it doesn't even cross your mind. People envy your ability to take on any challenge ... and they're secretly afraid you think you're better than them. You don't. You're just sure of yourself.

What Do People Envy About You?

You Are Marge Simpson

You're a devoted family member who loves unconditionally. Sometimes, though, you dream about living a wild secret life! You will be remembered for: your good cooking and evading the police Your life philosophy: "You should listen to your heart, and not the voices in your head."

The Simpsons Personality Test

NIGHTS OF DEEP WISHES

this is the week of work again, where i will be meeting the kids to tie up the loose ends.

sigh.

i just weighed myself.

i've gained weight

strangely i do not feel unhappy, in fact, it's just great that it's a wake up call to start exercising yet again.

i guess i must have been happy at my present job to even gain weight.

ah well..let's talk about other weighty issues.

I was just beginning to think about why i'm not getting things done in my life.

1) I care too much about other people?
2) I am too lazy to do anything about it?
3) Perhaps this is just not the right time to step up the dream wagon.

the main thing is do i really know what i want out of life.

or am i merely fumbling around while others have already have set their sights on their piece of cake?

drats.

I hate to admit it, but i hate losing out.

i'm a sore loser (but who isn't?)
I suppose perhaps i ought to step up my game a little and be a little more patient in my game plan.

instead of going in and out of different games, i should stick to one game plan and see how it goes.

risk taking takes time.

and courage

and less weight.

yes. time to go running and stuff.

da winky code

yeah as some of the kids have coined it. da winky code. heh

caught it with a friend last night. a very old friend. someone whom i've been too close to.

it was a nice movie, which stayed true to the book to a certain extent. the big turn off was the ending, and the abrupt arrest of teabing. because sigh they have changed the ending.

somehow, the winning formula in dan brown's book was missing.

the excitement, the thrill, the hunt.

i just felt a little uneasy when the movie tried to be politically correct at the end.

it's all about what you want to believe in.

yawn.

whatever it is.........i felt upset at the way some truths were distorted and now the world's confused about a lot of facts.

some interesting stuff and different worlds

got this from sue's blog :)





erm okie interesting haha





yes shenny is my old old old old old old old nickname which my old internet friends used to address me by,

of course i've left that world and came back to reality a few years ago.

speaking about worlds,

i bumped into this really old classmate of mine from sec sch twice unexpectedly.

once it was at star bucks and the other time sakae sushi, while i was out with sue and wm.

we smiled at each other, but it felt weird looking back at someone whom i treated as a good friend.

yeah, that was the world i came out from and sucked into another one in jc.

i guess you can say that i'm a galaxy trekker, exploring different worlds at different times of my life.

in a way,one could say that i love the journey and never want to stop at a particular destination.

i was like that friend many years ago, and she hasn't changed much. but i have.
sometimes i wonder if one day i will be satisfied to stay in just one world.

perhaps that's the day i'll find true happiness.