some things i wanna do in 2007

1) get my class 3 licence!
2) learn inline skating
3) to go to gym at least once a week and inline skating once a week, plus two times in school exercise :)
4) to cherish and love those who love me :)
5) to save up and not be so spendthrift
6) to be a better teach and be more efficient at my work
7) to be more spiritually intuned with god.
8) to live for myself :)

LAST DAY REFLECTIONS

yeah finally it's going to be 2007 tomorrow.

isn't it exciting? heh

well... it's time for me to do one of those closure entries where i am supposed to say how wonderful this year is.

frankly..it is.

if 2005 was the year i suffered and wept and had to tolerate a lot of shit from many people, 2006 is the year i renewed myself, let go of people and things who were hurtful to me and yet strengthened my friendship with those who deserved my love and attention.

it also marked the year i started in my career and feeling happy at my personal growth as a person, mentor and friend.

it is also the year i partied very hard and worked very hard.

perhaps 2007 will see less of the partying as i continue to do better at my work and of course take on more responsibilities.

if 2005 was the year i met dear sue, 2006 is the year i met evy and became a stronger person :)

thanks babes.

love ya.

SOME CHRISTMAS THOUGHTS

yeah. one word sums it all. tired.

i'm been going out a lot lately for the past few days and have been getting little sleep. somehow i do feel happy la, that i managed to sort some things out in my life. or rather some thoughts about thoughts.

i guess i shall do the boring numerical list heh.

1) i was never the dreamer, rather i'm the realist. perhaps some people might view me a the inevitable corporate rat, but sometimes..some things goto give. :p

2) i figure i should be more decisive about things, especially when it comes to matters of the heart.

3) life shouldn't be wasted on too much dwelling and wondering. perhaps some action is needed.

christmas weekend memories

FRIDAY

was spent with dear friend. clubbing. at one of the best clubs in the world :) not that i've travelled much, guess i don't have much of a wanderlust.

SATURDAY

organised one lunch gathering with a group of friends, haven't seen one of them in the longest time.

spent the night at dear sue's place. it was loads of fun and excitement :)

some crazy facts

1) i never knew 13 shots and a beer and vodka cranberry could do a bit of damage
2) to sober up, just eat frog's leg porridge. :p
3) sigh never ever msg weird stuff when you're half drunk :)

what if

i have been having the most funky weird dreams of late. perhaps the products of idle and leisure. one was somewhat entertaining as i was some gf of some manga hero who was trying to avoid some ninjas in a high speed chase in a car park. don't ask me why, i shan't bother to psycho analyse this dream, but ya that's how vivid some of my dreams get. thankfully, just as the dream got too scary, my mobile beeped. someone msged me.

and i do wonder, what if...i don't wake up from the dream and yet be deceived that it is the real deal.

wouldn't it be scary to be in a coma, and all along the life you thought you were leading was false and when you wake up... it's back to square one?

ya.

just some idle thoughts.

perhaps fantasy world isn't so bad afterall.

Templeton from Charlotte's Web

the original cartoon i caught! :) sigh i think the video's gone la... ha ha i remembered watching this over and over again.

Charlotte's Web clip - SOME PIG

whoa my favourite childhood story. :) watched it as a cartoon when i was younger, moved me to tears. then read the book. one of the most heartwarming stories of friendship.

Eminem-Like Toy Soldier

hmmm eminem's cover of the same song

Martika - Toy Soldiers

It wasn't my intention to mislead you
It never should have been this way
What can I say
It's true, I did extend the invitation
I never knew how long you'd stay

When you hear temptation call
It's your heart that takes, takes the fall
(Won't you come out and play with me)

(Chorus)
Step by step
Heart to heart
Left, right, left
We all fall down
Like toy soldiers
Bit by bit
Torn apart
We never win
But the battle wages on
For Toy soldiers

It's getting hard to wake up in the morning
My head is spinning constantly
How can it be?
How could I be so blind to this addiction?
If I don't stop, the next one's gonna be me

Only emptiness remains
It replaces all, all the pain
(Won't you come out and play with me)

(Chorus)
(Chorus

Frankie Lymon and the Teenagers- Why Do Fools Fall In Love

yeah another song from that long lost era. ;)

THE PLATTERS -smoke gets in your eyes

yeah one of the most romantic songs around. :) a voice from heaven.

without me

slim shady part 2 :p

The Carpenters - Only yesterday

ya another gem.

THE CARPENTERS - YESTERDAY ONCE MORE (WITH LYRICS).

yeah one of the best vocals of the last century. pity she died la...poor woman was suffering from anoerxia before it got highlighted as a disease.

Earth Angel

guess pple don't make this type of songs anymore :)

only you - the platters

yeah. another hit from them heh.

"The Great Pretender" - The Platters

heh my all-time favourite oldies group :)

Shirelles - Will You Still Love Me Tomorrow

yeah a trip down memory lane. i love this song. just shows a more innocent happier era of the last century, unlike today's negativity.

Eminem - The Real Slim Shady

heh i love this version of slim shady. so cute.

Eminem- The Real Slim Shady

ok. this one seems more authentic ha h

A FAB MESSAGE FROM GOD

Philippians 4 (New King James Version)

4 Rejoice in the Lord always. Again I will say, rejoice!
5 Let your gentleness be known to all men. The Lord is at hand.
6 Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; 7 and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus

yeah great message from dear god almighty. guess i do worry a tard bit too much. so this bible verse really speaks to me.

that i shouldn't worry.

i should pray

i should be glad because christ is guarding my heart and mind

:)

song of the week

yeah this is ringing in my head and my heart heh. very apt song for the situation i caught myself in heh.

Why by annie lennox.

Why? Why?
How many times do I have to try to tell you
That I'm sorry for the things I've done?

But when I start to try to tell you
That's when you have to tell me
Hey... this kind of trouble's only just begun

I tell myself too many times
Why don't you ever learn to keep your big mouth shut

That's why it hurts so bad to hear the words
That keep on falling from your mouth
Falling from your mouth, Falling from your mouth

Tell me... Why? Why?

I may be mad I may be blind
I may be viciously unkind
But I can still read what you're thinking

And I've heard is said too many times
That you'd be better off
Besides... Why can't you see this boat is sinking ?

Let's go down to the water's edge
And we can cast away those doubts

Some things are better left unsaid
But they still turn me inside out
Turning inside out turning inside out
Tell me... Why? Why? Tell me...
Why? You don't know? Why? You don't know?

This is the book I never read
These are the words I never said
This is the path I'll never tread
These are the dreams I'll dream instead
And these are the years that we have spent
And this is what they represent
And this is how I feel
Do you know how I feel ?
'cause i don't think you know how I feel
I don't think you know what I feel
Why You don't know
Why You don't know what I feel
Why You don't know
Why don't know what I feel

Why ?

WHEN YOU WANT TIME TO BE FROZEN

perhaps this is one of the few moments in my life i really want time to be frozen.

yeah.

i do feel sincerely happy... really happy.

haven't felt like this for a long time.

winkz~

Grease - We Go Together

yeah just imagine when i was in p6, danced to this tune. :)

Forever 90210

very old school. years before OC came by. it was way hotter than OC will ever be la.

Seth and Summer Music Video : Once in a Lifetime

ok to all the OC fans out there heh this is for you. music: Once in a lifetime (gregorian version of sarah brightman's song)

Gregorian - Once In A Lifetime *RARE* 1991

hmmm one of my all-time favourite songs :) yeah the type that reminds me of the good ol' days.

Lisa Lisa & The Cult Jam - Lost In Emotion

yeah one of my favourite retro hits ;)

2unlimited- no limit

oh yeah. i love this track. ha ha that's old school techno for you :)

2unlimited- get ready for this

gosh this is really very old school. ha ha used to dance to this tune for some school exercise in the early 90's

FRILLY PRETTY THINGS IN LIFE

yeah. i was feeling down since the weekend because of one silly sms from that someone.

yeah everyone's telling me to forget about that someone.

even my little head is telling me "wake up woman, stop thinking about him and move on."

the head can shout 10 thousand reasons of why i shouldn't care, but of course, i'm not the sort to turn my back on anyone la. guess i was brought up to believe that no matter how badly people treat you, you shouldn't do it back to them.

of course..i'm no angel, there were times i did bad stuff to others consciously or unconsciously... but as much as possible, of coz i will minimize that bad side la.

but anyway back to the story.

before this blog turns into some video blog instead ha ha. (pardon the multi-posting of the music videos..but i really loved those songs and sometimes music does all the talking for you :), all i wanna say is

i do feel happier now.

yeah mood swing la.

first i was down, now i'm feeling happy.

perhaps buying a new phone helped,
perhaps more sleep helped,
perhaps having fab friends around me helped.

but ultimately thank god la. i used to be so emo about such issues and will get bogged down for months or weeks or even years. at least now, it gets easier for me to get over my down side and be happier.

i guess even when the whole world seems to be up against you or all the odds are against you (ok la i'm overdramatising this, but heck, just indulge me heh); all these doesn't matter when you love yourself enough not to be bogged down.

or at least have trust or have a faith in something.

it could be faith in your family,

faith in your friends,

faith that there is some goodness in this world,

faith that god will help you,

faith that things will get better because you are strong enough to handle it.

so i suppose i cannot change who i am.

the brash, frank , forthcoming person that i am because those are the qualities that made me survive those really trying times.

perhaps those trying times brought out all those negativity like

my sarcasm. my temper. my mood swing.

but anywayz.. ha ha have fun!

Madonna - Material Girl

ha ha one of my favourite retro songs man. and of course madonna at one of her best :)

Cyndi Lauper - Girls Just Wnat To Have Fun

this is dedicated to all the babelicious girlfriends i have :) thanks for partying, dancing with me during the good times, and being there for me at the lowest time. :)

aqua - my oh my

ha ha song of those good old days :) damn i lost the cd :(

Whigfield - Close To You (Downtown Edit Remix)

yeah this song reminds me of those days when i was pimply, awkward teen trying hard to fit in (still trying to but but heck la. :p)

Whigfield - Saturday Night [1994]

yupz. one of those songs one should dance to on a saturday night.

BELIEVE - Cher

yeah... one of my top 10 most played songs in my mp3 player heh.

Third Eye Blind - Semi-Charmed Life

yeah! my teeny booper days rewind.

U2 - With or without you (live)

yeah!!! my favourite U2. :)

Honeyz - End Of The Line

hmm the third song i didn't know about, but it's nice too :)

Honeyz - Finally Found

another fab song from the honeyz.

Honeyz - Never Let You Down

sigh~ well this is one of the songs you'll sing when you're lovey dovey with someone.

Christina Aguilera Come on over

nice video with great vocals.

hey baby dj otzi

hmmm one of the songs that one should get drunk with. :)

DJ Sammy - Why

another song by dj sammy. sigh hmv here i come!

First Love

guess i'm feeling sentimental this afternoon. heh enjoy. one of my favourite jap songs. utada just rocks la. she's really the VOICE.

* DJ Sammy * heaven * ( slow remix )

slow version!!! :)

DJ Sammy - Heaven

yeah!!!!! i love this song. heh. but i prefer the slower version.

Promise Me

yeah!!! yes by beverley craven. one of the classic songs. sigh i feel old.

Charlene's Never Been To Me

i love this song!!!! some song i grew up with during those rides with my parents. sigh those were the good ol' days.

sandy lam rules

yeah!!! i went to the sandy lam concert with dear sue girl. it was really good, i've always always loved sandy lam la. she's one of the few chinese singers whom i feel has real talent, a fabulous voice, great personality and a nice image. :)

she has good dancing technique plus stage presence, always eager to please the crowd and actually sang for an extra 15 minutes. sigh~ and she sings live very well.

ha ha yes i sound like a groupie :)

after that sue dear and i went to cosy bay for nice barcardis, chicken wings and pizza...and chatted by the river side.

life is good :)

林憶蓮 情人的眼淚 featuring Dick Lee - 1990

yeah one of the few chinese songs that i actually like. a classic hit ;)

P M Dawn - set adrift on memory bliss

love the song, the lyrics. sigh~

La Bouche-Sweet Dreams

another classic hit. ah well, the hey days of eurodance is gone.

La Bouche - Be My Lover [1995]

hmmm my sis and i call this our "chao ah lian" song heh.

Vitamin C - Graduation Song

i'll always remember this is the song when i was in jc o well...seems like so long ago.

Gillette e 20 Fingers - Mr Personality

ha ha ha one of those horrible songs i used to sing along to during my angsty teenage years.

C+C Music Factory - Gonna Make You Sweat [1990]

another retro dance hit :) then again for some reason, pageants love to use this music heh.

Come and get your love • Real McCoy

shoots. didn't know they also did this song. guess it's one of those radio friendly songs one tends to sing along to and not too sure who sang it. now i know. ha ha

Another Night • Real McCoy

one of my absolute favourite songs in the 90's. classic la.

Do You Miss Me? by Jocelyn Enriquez

gosh one of those songs i used to sing along to during my secondary school days, and the type of song cheerleaders will chose for their routine hee.

some things turn out well

yeah, finally the major event i've been planning for the whole year has come to a close. it's been quite a painful and tiring process. publicity. collecting money. finding human resource. settling the sponsorship problems. money problems. somehow everything falls into place so easily. :)

praise god for that.

if only such things will happen in my other aspects of my life which have made my heart break into a million different pieces.

well only god will know whether i'll prevail or fail. :)

DJ Bobo feat Irene Cara - what a feeling

nice retro song with a nice remix version :)

DJ Bobo Love is All Around

ha ha for those of you who prefer techno. :)

Tiesto - Beautiful Things

nice song, apparently not by tiesto heh.

Paul Van Dyk - For an Angel (Beach Version)

yet another paul van dyk gem, yeah i'm sort of looking through some of his songs, perhaps try to find it at cd shops :)

Tell me why (The Riddle) - Paul Van Dyk

nice video :) and remix of course.

paul van dyk, we are alive

yes!!! one of the best djs ever. who says people go clubbing just to look at girls. sigh shit la other than tiesto, i would love to hear him spin. :)

Black Legend - You See The Trouble With Me

heh, yes this is indeed one of the nicest club hits, finally found out the title and the artiste's name.

Mary Jane shoes

Fergie - Mary Jane Shoes Lyrics
(feat. Rita Marley, The I-Three's)

When I wear - my mary jane's shoes
I can escape - from a blues
The whole world seems a little bit brighter, brighter
My heavy steps get a little bit louder, louder

Wooh my mary jane's [4x]

When I wear - my mary jane's shoes
Just like a child - under bruise
My heart and my soul - they feel like I'm seven
But from my head to my toels
It's like I'm in heaven, heaven

Wooh my mary jane's [4x]

When I wear mary jane's shoes
I enjoy to spin - the ones and toes
Music has another dimension
And I can dance with another perception

Wooh my mary jane's [4x]

LESSONS IN LIFE

yes. i've learnt some painful lessons and in a way god is telling me to keep my faith and keep to the path.

perhaps it's only when we have gone off course that we start to track back to our original purpose and objective.

and what's the point of crying over spilled milk when it has fulfilled its purpose.

i sometimes ask god is it really worth having faith in people when they can really break your heart down?

is there a point of no return?

i don't know.

i guess as i was looking at this poster on my wall:
"nothing is impossible with god".

"to be wronged is nothing unless you continue to remember it. Forgiving those who hurt us is the key to personal peace"

and of course "Not by might nor power, but by my spirit".

:)

SOMETIMES

today was a day of peace and reflection for me.

went to novena for the service and it was great. got some reflection and somehow i got the peace i wanted from god.

i guess sometimes there is no point worrying about problems or why certain people behave in certain ways, sometimes there isn't any answer and it's pointless to wonder why.

yes i do tend to overanalyse and worry too much.

but i cannot help it when shit always happen in my life when i don't really need it.

all i can say is... i shall be passive about things and let faith take over.

it was nice to see my colleague getting married in her church, such love between her hubby and her is really remarkable :)

and after that had a nice dinner and chat with a good friend who sort of shook some sense into me. :)

ay.... nua nua nua.